3:30 in the morning.....

so i have some serious heartburn, my bean has hiccups, it's 3:30am and i don't think i'm sleeping for a while. that's ok. will write instead. have been feeling more and more prego every day. these last weeks are really different for me. went to put my running shoes on and i can't reach the laces. try to get up in the morning and i have to rock a few times side to side to get up the momentum- we just laugh though. love this belly. love this boy. get to quit work in a few weeks. figure at nine months i'll want to start resting more. ohhhhhh...but how i'll miss my sweet babies at the preschool. makes me teary and heartsick. crazy how attached i am. the other day i was giving kate too many kisses (she's so cute i want to cuss) and i thought, 'i hope i love my baby as much as i love you!' cody keeps buying books for bean. last night he read us 'cloudy with a chance of meatballs'- he's so excited. just keep praying that everything is smooth for our birth. gonna be an experience for sure. k- i've got to try to sleep now. here's hoping.

september in mesa....blah!

k- most of the time i really do try to stay positive but september here blows! i should be pulling out my fall jackets and my scarves and wearing tights and boots and getting all excited about the leaves changing and the smell of cold and crisp on the verge. nope. it's 109 degrees outside right now. doesn't help that i'm already a giant oven- busy cooking a baby bun. cody and i have been laughing so hard lately though. the kind of laughs that make me wheeze. i love it. am enjoying the bradley classes with him too. feels good to have my friend with me. get kinda nervous when i think about how close we are to having this baby but i have so much faith in cody and my body and our little boy. we set up the crib- simple, with soft, clean, white sheets of course. and we got our car seat in the mail. so cute. part of me just really loved that the color's called 'black licorice'. i'm so practical right? still amazed at how much stuff a tiny little person needs though. cody and i have had several freak out moments-when you think about how much growing you still have to make as an individual let alone as a parent. how does God do it? how does He trust us so much with His sweet babies? He probably has freak out moments too.