sweet ceej....

he's so awesome- two days away from 4 months- i know everyone says it goes so fast but i can't believe it- take him to the doctor on thursday for some shots- they're gonna try to give him 5 but he's only getting two- just two for now- then maybe two more next month. he's getting eyebrows finally. was looking a little whoopi goldberg for a while. cody and i have been thinking a lot about alaska- we could be moving soon- crazy cause we really crave the adventure of it but there's so much more to consider now- gonna be praying tons for sure-

i can do this....

cj's been asserting himself lately- really nuts how mad he can get- sometimes he looks at me like a defiant teenager and he's only 4 months. this is new for me and i'm feeling a bit flustered. just put him down for a nap and finally he's stopped yelling at me. gonna go check on him...shoot- still awake but he didn't see me- this is hard.

my boyfriend....

all because cody won't spend more than $10 on a haircut- we laughed so hard after this one.

santa fe- are you there? do you swear you won't forget me?....

cody and i took bubbs to santa fe this weekend. our awesome friends, eric and lissa, invited us to stay with them in a cozy place right in the middle of town- couple of blocks from the o'keefe museum. so, sooooo sweet! we ate yummy food and spent time in this little, rare book shop with a gorgeous collection of books that i'll never buy cause i'll never be able to afford them. and then there was o'keefe. she. is. my. biggest. fan. i mean, i'm her density. i mean, her destiny. i just love her. ceej was so good at the museum. people kept commenting on how sweet he was. he's got the greatest face too- with two sets of eyebrows. soft and happy or cocked and cynical. argh! i love him! lissa snuck the photo of ceej in front of one of the paintings- isn't she great?- apparently georgia puts my boy to sleep- good times.

lucky me...

i can't believe how lucky i am. i get to stay home every day and hang out with my kid. really didn't know it would be like this- thought for some crazy reason that i would feel unfulfilled. cj does something new every day- i laugh all of the time- in the early morning when he's hungry and cody's gone to work, i pull ceej into bed with me and we fall back to sleep together- yesterday i woke up and he was smiling at me with his arms stretched over his head- just waiting for me to open my eyes- i feel sad for women that have to leave their babes with someone else- it's so fleeting- i'm looking at his pajamas with the rhino's on the feet- they're too small for him now- my heart is in my throat. today we were laying under the tree in our front yard and cj was kicking his feet and waving his arms frantically- trying so hard to say something. can't wait to hear what he has to say- hard to believe it only took nine months to make this sweet, perfect boy.

the little man of the house....

i can't get enough of my kid- feel bad that it's been so long since my last post but all i want to do is play with cj- he's so funny. we had him on the 10th of november- he came exactly on time- not something he got from me that's for sure.  we took him home for christmas- he was the perfect gift.  i have to say- we were a little worried that he didn't like us at first- he was always furrowing his brow and stiffening up like he couldn't wait to get up and walk away- but these past days he's let me snuggle him all i want and he's got nothing but smiles for me- the devilish kind too-  man, i'm in love!  had no idea i'd love him this much.  my favorite things are the little dimples on his hands where his knuckles should be- makes me crazy.