lucky me...

i can't believe how lucky i am. i get to stay home every day and hang out with my kid. really didn't know it would be like this- thought for some crazy reason that i would feel unfulfilled. cj does something new every day- i laugh all of the time- in the early morning when he's hungry and cody's gone to work, i pull ceej into bed with me and we fall back to sleep together- yesterday i woke up and he was smiling at me with his arms stretched over his head- just waiting for me to open my eyes- i feel sad for women that have to leave their babes with someone else- it's so fleeting- i'm looking at his pajamas with the rhino's on the feet- they're too small for him now- my heart is in my throat. today we were laying under the tree in our front yard and cj was kicking his feet and waving his arms frantically- trying so hard to say something. can't wait to hear what he has to say- hard to believe it only took nine months to make this sweet, perfect boy.

the little man of the house....

i can't get enough of my kid- feel bad that it's been so long since my last post but all i want to do is play with cj- he's so funny. we had him on the 10th of november- he came exactly on time- not something he got from me that's for sure.  we took him home for christmas- he was the perfect gift.  i have to say- we were a little worried that he didn't like us at first- he was always furrowing his brow and stiffening up like he couldn't wait to get up and walk away- but these past days he's let me snuggle him all i want and he's got nothing but smiles for me- the devilish kind too-  man, i'm in love!  had no idea i'd love him this much.  my favorite things are the little dimples on his hands where his knuckles should be- makes me crazy.